Monday, February 01, 2016

A summer in Turkey

It didn’t occur to me for a long time that for nearly a year while I had worked for Nomura in New York, I had walked amidst where the twin towers had once stood. From my office, I would often gaze at the mason pits where the constructions for a much talked-about memorial were under progress. As I would try catching eye contacts with the colleagues on smoke breaks, I would often turn attention to the slowly towering structures of the new World Trade Centre.
Big cities have a remarkable ability to move on - things we hold on dearly to in our lives often become trivial non-entities in the eyes of others. Last month, when bomb blasts hit the Sultanahmat district, the thought that I could have been one of the victims while I had vacationed in Turkey sends chills down to bones - but an extreme sense of ignominy that it poses is equally disturbing.
Long summer days of my childhood spent poring over literature retained in colonial libraries after all were to turn largely immaterial to the further generations. The school-teachers of my days - fully-trained academics fallen short of limited quotas of the Indian public sector - were to only find their literary enthusiasms misplaced in the modern India. An old magic that I had adored as a kid had died out as I entered into my late teens. It surprises me in retrospect, how amidst dire Indian poverty a passion for languages had survived in the generation that had educated me.
I can thankfully relive some of those magical moments in London - where a civilization seems to have survived all calamities. London houses multicultural neighborhoods as heartily as it harbours the vigour of the 18th century - an era when colonists had acquired new lands in Asia. Long before the seeds of colonialism and terrorism were sown, the law-makers had shuttled back and forth from England to the exotic lands of Asia to understand the local customs and languages. This was the time when Ballantyne had become the principal of Sanscrit [sic] College in Varanasi. Gun-toting men of East India Company - who had wished to repeat the Dutch success - were equipped both with military discipline and an obsession with the Greco-roman antiquity.
The discovery of ancient India, therefore, much like the rest of the Asia, was to be understood in terms of Greek history. The claims like Siva being Dionysus or Sanskrit having come out of Greek seems ludicrous now - but given the impact that Greco-Roman heritage had had on Western culture, these theories don’t appear very far-fetched in hindsight.
Ruins of an old Greco-Roman city lie within a mile from the hotel room in Turkey where I had written this note. The hunt for locations where the classics had been staged or St Paul had lived still excites the traveller and the relics of Roman empire never fail to impress. The sheer extent of an agrarian Roman empire nearly dwarfs the industrial ones of last centuries. That Greek writing systems and administrative institutions were transplanted in a mixed-race society in 6th century BC Parthia and India - dares to revive hopes for modern universalism.
Amidst this glory of classical civilization though, the sparkle of an Ottoman past is also quite conspicuous in Turkey- as is the genteel decline which followed the loss of territories. A political quickfix from Mustafa Kemal surfaces everywhere - in almost Leninist “red” fashion as flags at universities and administrative buildings. This could create fear or strength depending on one’s political stance - but wary of the mixed results from militarism of Nehru and Bose in India, I only feel a mild caution in face of Turkish nationalism.
Like anywhere else with military attempts at modernity, the centuries of culture seems difficult to be shunned in a generation. Changing palaces (Abdul Mecit I) or ending sultanate had never been part of a plan to change the Islamic character of Turkey. The rural and urban divide is therefore stark in Turkey. The economic constraints on working classes from less developed hinterland seem to prevent them from enjoying the same education and life-standards as the city dwellers. While the economy has made impressive strides, the post-war industrialization does not seem to have advantaged the society evenly. Like elsewhere in Asia, bitter political rivalries make Turkey prone to corruption and extra-governmental control.
As I walk through streets in Canakkale, an obsession with cars, electrical gadgets, fast-food and plastic chairs offers a ambiance familiar from my childhood. It isn’t just the economic conditions that I can relate to, it is also the nostalgia that Turkey’s splendid Islamic architecture evokes. Its palaces, halls, mosques and offices built between 15th and 19th centuries carry beautiful Arabic calligraphy and remind of an era not yet influenced by Western advancement. The curiosity of someone who had spent his youth in the US (and having had a distant and circumspect appreciation of Islamic art ) seems misplaced in this overdose of calligraphy - particularly when the average Turk doesn’t seem to understand these taliq scripts.
A nostalgia feeds itself in solitude. As I walk through these mosques, a disconnection from past offers a familiar discomfort - but thankfully, the country’s success in modernization makes up very well for this slight unease. The sheer energy of ships, markets and traffic overwhelms. The country feels very much within Europe - but scrape through the surface though and you'll find middle-Eastern influences underneath. It is as if the modernity has been built out of Eastern history. To someone in India - institutionally trained to consider modernity as foreign (and thus destined depend on foreignness for modernity), this feels strange and yet desirable.
Turkish language itself is seems a great example of this melange. It is written in the Roman script - but is irreversibly intertwined with Persian and Arabic. The administrative and institutional words almost always rely on the Persian-Arabic vocabulary (adalat, ziraat, sehr) whereas the everyday language sticks to native roots (syntax, numbers). Similar to the French overload in English, the words from both Persian and Turkic origins are allowed in Turkish (Persian meshur and Turkic unlu are both Turkish words).
In this grand melee of cultures, one cannot lament for the calligraphy too much. In countries that have tried and have had some success with modernity, the merits of economic progress and public health seem far abound - but a feeling of disconnection from the past haunts. As I sip through the Turkish coffee, I remind myself that literacy itself is a modern, republican phenomenon (why cry over an extrapolated past). The average Turk in 19th century won’t have been able to read at all - so when modernity arrived, the medieval scholarship was set to disappear.
Central Europe itself precariously cherishes such time-warps in its smaller cities - defending itself against Americanization and rising immigration. The fate of medieval scholarship in the middle East is no different from that of the Latinate aristocracy of modern Europe. The real conflict in the middle-East - therefore - isn’t that of East vs West, but that of modern urban frameworks with traditional rural frameworks. Our requirements of standard truths for citizens - lends itself to nationalists everywhere and instead of a Latinate/Sanskritic/Islamic aristocracy which relies on ancestral hierarchies, we survive on global markets, science, technology and engines of innovative machinery - essentially killing the market for classical paeans and religious cannons.
Although I feel annoyed that my tour-guide cannot stop ridiculing the feudal lethargy of the Ottomans and the interest in “petty” matters like clock towers at the cost of modernization of their armies, I can echo the youthful desire to overthrow Brahmins, Ming dynasts and feudalists of all sorts. To a radical modernizer, this seems a task unfinished in most of the developing world. I too find the rajput habit of shooting guns at wedding ceremonies in India rather ridiculous - a habit they share with Turks that my tour guide finds annoying.
The rural hinterland of Turkey is more religious than the coastal Turkey. The average Turk may not be taught Arabic - but the qurans which I saw in mosques were in Arabic. While at other places, this may point to ethnic strife, Turkey seems to move forward with this ambiguity. Sufi dervishes - once banned by Kemal - now perform at the shrine where they had started from. As the older past is decimated, it is difficult not to hope for a better connection with the past but although an attempt to revive the past may seem urgent to an Ottoman romantic, it is symbiosis and energy that Turkey seems to move ahead with.
It would be difficult to imagine anything else - Turkey is after all a country where the Hellenic heritage can be truly celebrated. It is home to Troy, Aphrodisias, Hierapolis, Ephesus besides having maintained the capital of Roman empire and of early Christianity for centuries. At its peak, the Ottoman empire extended into Bulgaria and modern Greece and however undesirable this may appear now, the conquest years have left Turkey closer to Europe than any other middle-eastern country. This is a place where synthesis of a new world where East and West can meet seems possible.
It is by far the only place I have been to where Western universalism plays within the realms of Eastern traditions. It is not a society so structured and dependent on metrics like the West, that an idea of a Turkic “race” has yet taken a stronghold. Islam, in fact, keeps the country anchored to Asia. Probably confused for a Kurd, I was expected to speak in Turkish on multiple occasions. In India, where I won’t be allowed in a mosque as a non-Muslim and my friends of white color (Turkish use the same word for them - firangi ) won’t make it inside most Hindu temples from before 17th century, the grandest of all mosques are open to all in Istanbul. At a time when most of right-wing politics in India survives on an 18th-century dual self-identity of a devil-worshipping cult and a great Aryan civilization - the self-image of Turks seems to have veered far away from the horse-riding Asiatics which European travelers of 18th century had talked about.
For someone still longing for colonial nostalgia, Turkey seems to have positively moved on. Turks don’t appear to be making money through enactment of an orientalist imagery. I couldn’t find very many equivalents of elephant rides or stylized begging in Turkey. While there were a few belly dancing cruises I could have opted for, the splurge of classics kept me unprepared for the wonderful possibilities. I kept trying hard to find an orientalist motif to my experience - patterned pottery, sheesha lounges, bare stomach nikab-ed women, jugglers, acrobats and tricksters of all kinds - but it was remarkably easy to cut through the orientalism. With its sense of controlled chaos, Istanbul appears not so different from the Georgian London I have read about.
That said, Istanbul does have its own mess. From the vantage point of the popular culture the West, Istanbul can be seen as a middle-eastern city with less rights for women, annoyances of catcalling, bad sanitation, general chaos and a crippling lack of “freedom”. But despite its chaos of the Egyptian bazaar, dumpsters, scamming taxi drivers and brutal police - the general feel and drive of the city imparts immense energy. Not only does the city seem to function, it outperforms in every way. The people seem content and happy. Women don’t dress as conservatively as we are made to think - while the mosques aren’t abandoned either. In remote outskirts of small towns (Canakkale and Selcuk where I had stayed), huts made of mud and bricks are easily visible - but people still get out in the evening and enjoy a borek or simit with a shot of coffee. Cafes are close to the mosques - where young women can sit relaxed up until midnight. The image of middle-east presented to us in the West may still bear some truth (my tourist guide tells me that holding hands can cause riots in rural hinterlands of Eastern Turkey), but Agean Turkey dismantles stereotypes in every way.
I had heard from people and read in books - that East and West shake hands in Turkey. As I walk through its streets, columns from all empires seem to appear out of nowhere. The conflict of modern vs traditional has been flattened - not so much through containment or crackdown on traditional Islam (as many continue to recommend) but through adjustments to the idea of nationalism and a common language. Collapse of massive empires often leads to strife, but the decline which Ottoman empire underwent hasn’t yet left Turkey in the kind of civil wars that had plagued the Balkans. The country had always been in conflict - my tourist guide tells me - but the microcosm of Istanbul welcomes all the world’s problems and possibly the clues to their solutions as well.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

学习 (learning) - set 001

Another random task I have set myself on to is learning the Chinese script. Learning French has never inspired me to live or visit France (although I have visited Paris for two days once) and learning Chinese has hardly anything to do with desire to visit China. I want to learn Chinese the same way I wanted to learn French a few years back.

I never ended up romanticising about French culture but I did fall in love with its literature. So far having read Maupassant, Voltaire, Verlaine and Baudelaire (apart from whatever I find online), I am quite content with the decision I had made about sticking to reading the French language. Speaking a language is a rather different organic process ; and I think one exercises empathy far more than the left-side of our brain in speaking a new language (If you feel the French way, for example, speaking French turns out far easier). Reading and composing a language is very different - it is what this post is concerned with.

With 4000 letters after abridgement, Chinese is no less than formidable as new language to learn. It is the first language I have encountered where etymology and morphology of Western languages seem irrelevant. The etymology of Chinese words doesn't need to be mined or researched from primeval languages - since it's always there in front of you. The letter "大" presents a stick-figure stretching his arms. The letter "在" en-capsulates a certain plant. These figures are then combined to create an approximate sense of every new word encountered. The semantics is always relevant in Chinese.

If this sounds too good to be true, then it probably is. Often times, words evolve from sounds (e.g. loan words). When that happens, the pictorial representation falls apart in Chinese and figures are brought in just for sound. Americans are 美国 (měiguó - beautiful people) in Chinese. This is not inspired by Marilyn Manson - but by how similar 美国 sounds to (a)merican. The substitution for sound doesn't just happen for foreign words. 個 (gè - individual), for example, once implied a bamboo-segment - but has been borrowed just for sound.

Considering that a billion people speak, read and write the language fluently, this must be all still be manageable.Here, in this post, I intend to keep a log of all 4000 letters (split in 100-each to be revised in 40 days). I am helped a lot by two websites in taking these notes - 1. www.learnchineseez.com and 2. www.chineseetymology.org - both of which I think have done a terrific job in putting up these resources for free.

Set 001


- white() + spoonful - now meaning "of"(de5) (also aim/clear - d`i)
- sh'i - flower on a slope (to be)
- b'u - blocked (not)
wǒ- hake (now meaning - I)
- yī - single line (one)
yǒu - a hand holding some meat (月) (have)
- dà - man stretching his arms (big)
- zài - earth (土) + phonetic only (才). Meaning "at"
人 - rén - {people} 
- liǎo - {know}
zhōng - {central}
- dào - reaching destination - { to arrive}
- zī - cowry () + secondary (次 - water[冫]coming out of a man's mouth [欠] ) - {capital/wealth}
yāo{demand}/yào{to want/must} - 女 + West - 西 - want/must
- kě - cane {can}
yǐ - {by means of, because}
zhè - 辵+ (step-with-left-foot(彳)+only(止)=>彳止 i.e. stopper =>辵) + writing( 文)/speech(言 - upside-down man's mouth 立 +口) - place to stop and write - {these}
gè - bamboo segment - {individual}
你 - nǐ - 亻(人 - people) + loom(爾/尔 - like that) - {you}  
huì{meeting}/kuài{account}
- hǎo - {well}
- wéi - {act as}
- shàng - mark above {up,above}
來 - lái - Fruit on a tree {come}
就 - jiù -  tall(京- jīng)+particularly(尤- yóu) () - {at once, approach}
學- xué -  子 taught by teacher's hands (𦥑) for marks (乂) {to learn}
交- jiāo - crossed legs {to intersect}
也 - yě - {also}
用 - yòng - waterbucket {to use}
能 - néng -   "strong-bear" from mouth(厶),(月肉) and feet (匕匕) -{can}
如 - rú due to phonetic 女 - {if}
文- wén- language/culture {man with a tie/dushala}
時 - shí -from sundial( , time)


沒- from water氵水 and action-by-hand 殳 - {méi-have not and mò-be drowned}
說 - shuì (persuade) shuō (speak) - speech (言 -) + a person talking {speak}
他 - tā - {him}
看 - kān - hand (手) + eye(目)  {look after or look}
提 - dī - hand (手) + phonetic 是 (sh'i) - holding in hand {carry/lift}
那 - nǎ nà - originally city name (阝) - {how/which,that}
問 - wèn - gate (门) + mouth (口) - {ask}
生 - shēng - small growing plant - {to be born}
過 - guò - walking on a road (辵) + inch (寸 or tr. 咼) - {to pass time/to cross}
下 - xià - downwards signal - {down}
請 - qǐng -speech(讠言)+phonetic 青 {to ask/invite/please (col.)}
天 - tiān - {sky}
們 -men5 - people(亻人)+ phonetic 门門 {they}
所 - suǒ - door (户) + ax make a door 斤 {actually/place}
多 - duō - too many moons (夕){much/many}
麼 - mó - {question-mark}
小 - xiǎo - three marks {small}
想 - xiǎng - heart (心)+ phonetic 相 {to think}
得 - dé - step-with-left-foot(彳) + phonetic 㝵 {to obtain}
之 - zhī - feet {him/her/it}
還 - hái, huán- walking on a road 辶辵(彳止) + phonetic 不瞏 orig. repeat {hái- more/still, huán- return}
電 - diàn - rain 雨 + lightning 电 {lightning/electricity}
出 - chū - {to occur/produce}
工 - gōng - carpenter's square {work}
對 - duì - hand 寸 (measure) + (follage) 又丵 - {pair/opposite}
都 - dōu/dū -  city(阝邑) + phonetic 者 {dōu-all dū-city}
機 - - {}
自 - - {}
後 - - {}
子 - - {}
而 - - {}
訊 - - {}
站 - - {}
去 - - {}
心 - - {}
只 - - {}
家 - - {}
知 - - {}
國 - - {}
台 - - {}
很 - - {}
信 - - {}
成 - - {}
章 - - {}
何 - - {}
同 - - {}
道 - - {}
地 - - {}
發 - - {}
法 - - {}
無 - - {}
然 - - {}
但 - - {}
嗎 - - {}
當 - - {}
於 - - {}
本 - - {}
現 - - {}
年 - - {}
前 - - {}
真 - - {}
最 - - {}
和 - - {}
新 - - {}
因 - - {}
果 - - {}
定 - - {}

Saturday, June 13, 2015

Visiting as if never left



The photographs - Qutab looked more fantastic in sight than in photographs. The photographs couldn't recreate the effect they usually do with other places I go to. The immediate effect of the Qutab on a sunny day - the red-ness in Islamic architecture was very unusual.

The train gives the perspective of the poor, undeveloped India. The kind of India that is in a time-warp where nothing has changed and where people are completely insulated from the rest of the world. Sometimes, I think the country shouldn't have been free and people should've just been exposed to all the problems. But nobody is going to invade India now - there is nothing left.

But despite its abject poverty and its miserable lack of hygiene, there is something still appealing about it. The fact that it has survived all that and people are still willing to live. There is that which makes this country appealing. There is very little other than that, but this enough is a compelling reason to be in India. India has been disconnected from the Western world and hasn't received much of what was good about the Western culture. The time rest of Asian world spent improving their institutions based on learnings from West India was reinvigorating its ancient institutions and helping them survive. It has only partially succeeded; it has given its people the taste of modern world but hasn't really forged the path to economic development.

Whatever is wrong with India, is not in its tradition or its religion. It is indeed in the weakness of its institutions, the lack of practical wisdom and (prominence- Adhikya) of self-centredness in its people. It lacks the communication among its people - a kind of communication that sets West apart. Where media tells people about themselves and where governments help people what they aspire and where the individual is strong to accomplish what he aspires.

The Eastern philosophy nevers lets the strong individual come forward and take charge of himself. The taste of development India has seen requires her to do so. India hasn't been able to build its own path to economic success - one where it doesn't have to compromise her self-respect for economic development. That is apparently why the development resides and is localized to the cities that were settled by British. No other (except Ahmedabad, may be) city has been able to provide the locals the path to success.

The south is different, but then we don't see the typical adherence to Indian tradition in South - except the ritual connections. It can be argued that South has been more successful because of its adaptability to English ways ( that is only partly true - expertise in English is more of an effect rather than cause of economic development)

What India needs, I think is a greater exposure to the West, probably a better one so that people can look at themselves.


Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Coders and Writers

I know very few good coders that are also good writers. While the best writers are not expected to write any code at all, the average-to-good coders are all expected to communicate at least a little. Being not able to write well can be a limitation. Whether you're running a start-up or communicating with your management, writing well cannot hurt.

Having been a coder and having had decent verbal skills, I often feel that the trouble with coding is that it is too different from conventional thinking. The way coders have to think everyday, makes them worry about details quite a lot. This often discourages you from "connecting" with your audience.

A writer, on the other hand, always connects with his audience. In journalism, history or fiction, writers go in the field, research information and communicate the essence to their authors. That is a full-time job. The job of a programmer is very different. He questions every finding in the field and then when he is done, he abstracts the logical details as far as necessary from its audience. Connecting with the audience is never required of him.

Having a high-level idea - which his intuition may encourage - also works against the art of the programmer. So he often ends up discouraging the intuitive process as well. Having structural design of a solution is a skill used by management but it is never enough for a coder - for whom almost everything requires getting down to the nitty-gritty. A friend of mine, while explaining to me how much of debugging does his real life is about, used to say that if you're a believer of "de minimis non curat praetor"  (king doesn't care about minor details) - make sure you stay away from programming.

It may sound ironical - when you observe that linguistics is the best place to study logic (language is where Lewis Caroll started study of logic with), it seems surprising that coders and writers have gone completely separate ways. Despite the historic appeal of coding to the logician - even the writers who would write about logic hardly benefit form a "coding" mindset in their art.

This brings about a certain "social" separation between coders and writers. As a teenager, I myself was inspired by writings of Bertrand Russell. It impressed me how well he could write. Clearly, his writings weren't appreciated by everyone. While students of logic loved him so much, Yeats himself had once called him stupid (ironically while explaining the importance of teaching mathematics to kids).

I know that Bertrand Russell must, seeing that he is such a featherhead, be wrong about everything, but as I have no mathematics I cannot prove it.
Source: http://languagelog.ldc.upenn.edu/nll/?p=4392


That a separation exists between coders and writers in our society is not an exaggeration and doesn't need more evidence. I think the reason lies in the very lack of a need of audience by the programmer. Lack of a need of audience is both the strength of the programmer's art and his severest limitation.Not needing an audience destroys the need to write.

I clearly remember, that as a teenager, I was inspired particularly by logic and mathematics and ended up having little regard for poetry for example. Yeats,Keats or Coleridge, despite their appeal to me as kids, seemed all the same in my teens. Writing a novel of size of War-And-Peace or Lord-of-the-rings seemed nearly impossible, even a grand waste of time sometimes.

The next ten years showed me how little my experience of the world had been because of this disconnection. I think I was only starting to understand what Wittgenstein had meant by saying - "The limits of logic are the limits of my world". The language of logic is all that mattered to me at that time - and yet there were people - my family, friends and women I was attracted to - who had no connection with logic whatsoever.

For a long time, still, my perspective was formed by evaluating everything logically. The need to be loved - was to do with reproduction and the need to socialize was to do with mobility. Too soon I felt I wasn't doing anything I truly enjoyed - or rather I wasn't enjoying anything I was doing. This didn't happen because I was tired of pretending but because I didn't know what my true feelings were any more. The need of feeling was precluded by the need to reason. Yet at the same time, I had several irrational propensities - a desire to learn new languages, an inexplicable liking for cinema, eat out, cook and read history. These activities weren't entirely logical, nor male entirely. I was doing them because I liked them.

As I started reading what I loved, the problem that I soon had was that I wasn't able to compose what I loved reading. Coding never posed a similar problem to me. When I was coding - I always came out as a conqueror - strong, robust and resilient. On the other hand, I would sound extremely miserable when I wrote. In my writing, the memories of past and dreams of future were driven inexplicably by a world of battles, famines and sorrow (thankfully I didn't read too much science fiction). While I was able to feel a lot more than that, what I wrote was just terribly and narrowly associated with search for causality.

It took me years to realize that the way we think is easily detectable from the way we write. The reason why most programmers I know can't write well is that they actually don't like writing. A certain level of stoicism helps a mathematician and a coder - but it's not a trustworthy friend of a writer. If you want to organize your thoughts, like many programmers do, it does help to question the thoughts and express what you truly mean. But a writer needs to connect with the audience and for that he needs to offer far more than the skepticism to his audience. I don't believe that programmers can't write. What I do believe is that they must write differently - and attempt to put their heart and soul into it - not just minds.

Long before he became a nobel laureate in literature, J. M. Coetzee used to be a programmer at IBM - something he wrote about in his work Youth in 2002. He did talk about being miserable in London - for reasons similar to what I had when I was in New York. Even though you do not want to become a full-timer writer or publish in literary criticism journals, you can certainly write as a coder if you want to. When someone trained in Applied Mathematics can win a nobel prize in literature, a lot of trained programmers could definitely get that sales pitch working. The separation I often see between coders and writers in the industry is really unnecessary.

My special case

There is an overwhelming sense of being special when you are an Indian man living abroad. Those who grew up in India bear the identity of a colonial people. As kids we were meant to feel through TV and books ( which mattered more when there was no internet ) that the British had conquered India over past centuries, had enslaved its people and ruled by dividing them into factions. An Indian man often lives with an immense sense of responsibility to revive this old, golden past - which was momentarily manipulated for empire-building interests.

In doing so, he has a difficult task - to connect the two disparate worlds - one where there was no English influence and one where there is nothing but English ideas.

Such a conflict thankfully hasn't resulted in civil wars in India as yet. There are two reasons for it - one is modernity which is liked by Indians and the second is that despite the nationalist spirit of colonial struggles, the migration of the Anglophile elite to the West was not as massive and the old colonial structure was retained as such (particularly so if you believe Perry Anderson - who rightly points out that 70% of Indian constitution is Govt. of India act from 1935).

There was in fact a lost paradise with the departure of British. The connection of the modern world with the native was broken and what was left to Indians was this new uncertain world - a world  probably as uncertain to the West.  Here, all of a sudden there was no foreign rule, no unanimous ruler was possible. The memories of having been "divided" persisted and the confidence to rule, invent or lead still required approval from foreigners. The English language, culture and institutions were to remain of importance - because shunning it completely would imply turning away from modernity.

The ambiguous connection of the Indian mind with the British is therefore born of the necessary evil of a loss. The attachment with English rule amidst India's elites was not shaken off after India achieved its independence from the empire - thus despite all the nationalist propaganda, the attachment with things English among Indians remained as a private music amongst many.
 
When an Indian travels abroad, he often doesn't know that the "fact" about past riches of India - taught in Indians schools is completely unknown to the West. India, was always a country ridden with caste and poverty, it is widely assumed. The private music is therefore secluded even further - since the memories of colonial rule in West aren't of cooperation or education, but really of armies and subjugation.

This continued obsession with power in the West - often presents Indians abroad with only two choices - one is to completely reject the delusions of the past and avoid issues which their schizophrenic attachment with India's past can bring. The other choice, is to completely embrace this private music and start viewing English influence itself as one of the many traditions of India. These choices are just a restatement of the already present conflict amongst Indians.

I myself have gravitated towards the latter choice - not for any other reason than my commitments to my family. For me to completely reject the attachment with India would mean rejecting my Indian family - who is subject to the very propaganda and ignorance that I complain about. The choice to embrace humanity over nationality is far easier for me than many others I know.

I think it is important to see the condition of immigrants in this light - since it explains the issues with national origin in the West. Being from a non-Western world prevents you from becoming a good soldier - and hence an ideal citizen of the country. Historically, loyalty to the kings is where ideas of nationality come from. So in the post-colonial world, I believe, no amount of integration or education can make every human within a certain boundary the part of a nation that is believed in by the majority. The nation itself often compromises its historical definitions to assimilate the new entrants.

The dilemma, which the Indian faces, is thus not a unique condition of post-colonials. Regardless of where we come from, we all face the  dilemma-  whether our notions of humanity can be superseded by the notions of nationality. Many of us make up their minds but others either avoid the question or end up choosing humanity over nationality.

The choice is false one, in my opinion. Outside of the world of armies and football teams, what difference does nationality make anyway? Besides what kind of a country is it where you have to compromise on values of humanity? India, UK or US - where I have lived so far, don't ask you this question directly. You read about certain radical view-points in the news, run into flag-bearers when there is football or cricket match and get back to life as usual. No one, thankfully, has ever imposed a certain agenda on me except through bad writing.

The conflict itself is therefore a continued state of existence. The special case of Indians, which requires a rather false belief in India's glorious past, is actually a projection of its difficult present. In reality, belief in a golden past is hardly a special case for Indians - only a sign of modernity that creates a conflict between power and equality, between hierarchy and humanity.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Cultural Gaps

What we know as cultural gap between East and West has been engineered through colonialism. It is through the colonial experience that the image of a pure, traditional, forgiving and often meek - Indian man has been engineered - an image that modern Indian male and the freed female has forsaken. Sociologists and post-colonial writers point out that the institutions which attributed softer qualities to female had worked in a similar fashion in colonies to objectify and celebrate the attributes in a whole "race" of people.

It is evident from history that the "cultural" gap wasn't as wide in the more fluid history of the 17th and 18th centuries. This was a time when East India company officials could have Indians wives and the lashkars from Western India could settle at English ports with British wives. I highly doubt that James Brooke was concerned about sending his kids to Oxbridge when he became the maharajah of Sarawak. But as we all know, the communication technologies and transportation improved by a lot in the 19th century. As East became more and more deprived, the preferences transformed. The discrimination could easily prosper when East couldn't offer any resistance - either cultural nor political - to colonialism.

The cultural gap which we talk to this day is actually not about culture at all. This talked about gap is largely determined by the perceptions of backwardness which have survived from 19th century. People in both East and West suffer with this prejudice. The right wing in the West cannot shun the idea of having imparted civilization to the East and the right wing of East cannot get over the perceived humiliation of the past. I don't see this as a cultural difference, it's only an error that needs to be corrected. In 18th century, Westerners would travel to India and delve into its literature without necessarily proving it as inferior - much the Easterners enjoyed learning the sciences without shunning their past identities or traditions. Both activities seem implausible in the modern culture as well as in the 19th century. The cultural gap which we live with was created for empire-building purposes and if that need is over, the talk of cultural gap seems unnecessary. The need is probably to stress upon what's good amongst each other without holding anyone accountable for mess-ups of our past generations.

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Poets and Readers

When I was a child, I was surrounded by those who talked of national poets. Pushkin was a big name. Nirala and Dinkar were big names. So were Wordsworth, Milton and Yeats. But nobody ever quite crossed the mark which was set by Tagore. Tagore was the man. He did things that nobody had foreseen. His literature was vast. His works alone meant more than all of Hindi literature combined - his literature so great that even the English swore by it.

Yet there were very few who had read what he wrote. The exhortations to walk alone were sung on TV and his poems on national pride were engraved or sung as anthems. They imparted a sense of comfort and continuity when I read them transcribed, engraved on marble in a script I could read. But that mythical and feminine country of his pride, was a lot less mythical than those who swore by his name. In their minds and speech, he was of an order so tall that it precluded most of us from reading him. Understanding him was nearly impossible.

When I grew up, the hypocrisy had given in and soon died along with communism. We cried for the sad end of a comrade in a battle for the poor. The poets were no more relevant in the new world. Dinkar-Nirala, Yeats-Keats became things for the feeble-minded - unproductive lovers of literature who couldn't feed themselves. The biographies of CEOs made more sense now. Everyone wanted to be them. Unread by most, Tagore's name licked the dust of time. Those other poets not as great as him slowly passed out of memory as well.

Where are the poets now? Who writes and who reads? Are we up for revival again or can we descend into chaos much worse than ours? For Tagore to live or relive, I wish we could just read like he did. Reading any poetry could do perhaps - of any language or any race. Let's never claim anyone's greatness without reading him.

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Reminiscing Social Psychology

Whenever I feel the lack of criticism and reflection among Indians, I find myself relishing the writings of Ashis Nandy and Pankaj Mishra. The two writers, Ashis Nandy in particular, seem to retain the social psychological framework that the pre-independence India had developed under the British rule. To both of these writers, much similar to the likes of R. Tagore, it is impossible to view the colonial experience as one of master vs slave or white vs black. Though what Marxism and Gandhism did was to create a British strawman to attribute India's social problems to, these writers attempt to delineate the problems in Indian psyche while history continued in the British times.

The so called struggle for independence was not of any critical importance to Indians until the 1920s when the economic problems started to appear in the empire. Indians had assimilated or rather internalized the violence which Western troops and discriminatory rule had unleashed to them. In the early 20th century, the Indian elites, Bengalis in particular, felt part of the British literary and intellectual tradition and were eager to contribute to it. Their feelings towards the empire were not of hatred but rather of awe.

Ashis Nandy, in his essay titled "The Savage Freud", describes an Indian psychologist named Girindrasekhar Bose, who corresponded with Freud over a period of twenty years and attempted to explain Oedipal theories in the Indian context. A modern interpretation of these writing shows Indian mind under the colonial rule in great detail. More than anything though, it shows the discontinuities of modern India. In Bose's mind or that of other Indian scientists (some of them Nobel laureates) there was no disconnection between puranic fables and modern science. The Marxist ideals that became vogue in India had no space for superstition. Rationality had to shun tradition much the way it did in the West. This particular aspect seems rather un-Indian but the modern India chose to adopt a Western style nationalism over traditional framework which the early 20th century Indian intellectuals were working on. The conflict with tradition however, still continues in India, much the way it does in the rural hinterlands of the West.

After independence, the Bengali elites were to feel the wrath of the general public. However, the incomplete revolution of India granted them sufficient privileges in the post-independence India - often allowing them to study and move abroad and continue with life as they had envisioned.
The social problems in India therefore largely remain untouched. What British established in India might have had some benign consequences as far as rise of a middle class was concerned. But apart from a microscopic elite, this class was not as big to have created an major impact on Indian society. The Nehruvian class that developed in the post-independence world took Marxism and nationalism far more seriously than inane Hindu stories - often committing the same prejudice against Indian frame of mind that the colonial masters were once blamed for.

Understanding of social problems and their historical roots seems a rather unknown institution in India of today. The elites which commented on India have long departed and what flourishes in India in name of social institutions, much like in all parts of world affected by post-war instabilities, are a conglomerate of institutions that track the US. The past is too unknowable and the present requires imitations of the West. For the most part, India still depends on Western commentary for its own self-image.

Friday, December 20, 2013

The rising costs of banks’ reputation

The latest Woody Allen movie is based on the life of Jasmine, a Manhattan socialite married to a banker who loses herself into depression as the dual life of the dishonest banker unveils. In the popular media of the post-crisis world, the picture of bankers’ greed destroying the society has become all too familiar. Hollywood however, dramatizes both sides of the story and hence for every movie made on the crisis, there is another equally compelling one that sells the dream of making it big in the city. Which side are people on is clearly not easy to assess through Woody Allen’s cinema alone.

But the survey on British Social attitudes published since 1983 is quite clear on whether the reputation of banks in public’s eye has been affected or not. In 1983, where 90% of the people surveyed thought that banks were "well run", now only 19% think that to be the case. The decline in public favor for banks is not to do with the onslaught of crisis alone. A lot of factors, it would seem, had acted against the public opinion of banks long before the crisis developed.

One of the well known factors that worked against the reputation of banks was economic inequality. With higher inequality in the 1980s, more people were to carry resentment against financial institutions. But the unification of financial services in the 1990s contributed to the resentment in some ways as well. As more and more banks came together acting in similar, standardized ways they were destined to collectively share the blame1 when crisis came along with its devastating impact on jobs and income2 3.

However, the preconditions of the crisis do not understate the effect of crisis itself. Financial crisis had immense negative impact on faith in all institutions in the UK. The faith in the UK government itself went from 40% to 20% according to the survey. In fact one of the reasons for loss of credibility in government was the role played by governments in bailing out banks.

Better prepared to handle public anger than banks, the governmental institutions have often unequivocally highlighted the failure on the banks’ part. In its report ‘Changing banking for good’4, the Parliamentary Commission which was setup to investigate the LIBOR scandal mentions that “In recent times, shockingly poor standards and culture have been revealed (in banking).” The report goes on to present “a picture of casual corruption set against a luxurious lifestyle”.

Andrew Tyrie, the Chairman of the Parliamentary Commission on Banking Standards, admitted that actions of regulators and governments have contributed to the decline in standards as well. Unfortunately for banks, as he also points out, the damage to the public opinion had already been done. With no direct interface with the public except through consumer banking, the financial industry was slow to react to the developing anger in public had its reputation damaged gravely by leaving the opportunity for press to fuel public anger against the financial institutions.

While promoting his book, Philipp Meyer, a UBS trader turned writer, described the immorality of traders he saw in banking. Writing for The Independent he said that “financial markets operate on the principle that, at our core, we’re all selfish, self-interested creatures.”He claimed that the lavish lifestyle of bankers was maintained at the cost of crumbling public institutions5.

There is indeed a recurring pattern when it comes to media reports on financial crises. An unqualified connection is often drawn between all the underperformance and bankers’ paycheck. The news stories thus told may have had some issues with causality but they were compelling enough to transform an unfavorable image of banks that prevailed during the 2000s into a severe negative perception after the crisis. The loss of jobs and industry’s behavior were all collectively attributed to large corporates and banks together 6 7. The public anger that followed created largely biased viewpoints in media and elsewhere2  with financial institutions as prime targets.

In 2009, working for JP Morgan in New York, what I witnessed as harmless and democratic protests around Chase Manhattan Plaza were soon to into a series of protests known as the Occupy Wall Street campaign. The public anger had transformed into unsettling notoriety and chaos.

While the effect of such protests on a city’s functioning and the image is clearly detrimental, what was far more unsettling at the time was the discovery that, once again, the public anger was not directed at a particular event, entity or phenomenon. In the eyes of the public, banks were collectively responsible for all that was wrong with the economy. The newspapers and media could record and analyze the events around Occupy Wall Street, but a deeper introspection on transparency in institutions, the rising pressures on the US economy and concerns related ethics in corporate governance was largely missing from the analysis.

It does not come as a surprise that the press itself has lost a lot of its prestige among public. Only 27% of the people participating in the British Social Attitudes Survey now think that newspapers are well run compared with 53% about 30 years ago. That is not to say that the role public media plays in shaping public opinion does not matter. In fact public opinion is very much shaped by the choices that journalists make everyday. As banking operates on trust of people, the damage to reputation caused by crisis is something banks would need to worry about.

The damaged reputation is sure to impact consumer banking immediately. With greater regulation and unification of products, trust has become a deciding factor for consumers in choosing different products offered by banks 8. A loss of trust would imply consumers’ disinterest in financial products and general risk-aversion. The risk aversion could reflect itself at higher levels over time and eventually as losses. The British Social Attitudes survey report points out that the attitudes to credit have significantly worsened after the financial crisis of 20099.

The job of financial institutions is to provide fair value of money to people. They act as an exchange where assets from all industries can be traded and new opportunities are created in the way. Even though investors and corporates are not immediately affected by an opinion shift, the declining public favor might help competitors of the UK financial companies and also encourage legislation to limit activities of major banks. The rise of shadow banking institutions and the government’s support for them may also be influenced by a rise in negative public opinion.

Another area to be affected would be the pool of talent that finance jobs attract. Although the choice of economics is still popular among young graduates but a swing in public opinion as well as decline in the job prospects has meant that finance companies don’t dominate the favorite choices of graduates any more. If compensation schemes come under further attack, the problems in recruitment of talent would present additional costs to financial companies.

A lot of unfavorable reporting on banks in the media points to serious problems in banking. There were issues related to mismanagement and financial misconduct in banking that still need to be taken care of. There is conclusive evidence that in pursuit of short-term goals and with limited downside risks, some banks did lose oversight and control. To be able to regain the public image the banks would need to engage more directly with public and focus on initiatives as Project Merlin. The survey of British social attitudes also hints at the rising need to support SMEs. This need, however difficult to meet, is a definite opportunity for banks to salvage their image. 

Fair business practices needs to advertised among public and transparency needs be adopted more thoroughly in financial institutions. There is research suggesting that less informed persons were disproportionately far more likely to be “angry” with banks about the crises than persons that had some knowledge of banking. Investing in financial education would go a long way in restoring the faith of public in both governments and banks. 

Behind current financial problems lie the unprecedented and aggressive pressures on the global economy. In Europe, where public expenditure has increased to its limits, public services struggle to support with an aging population. In Asia, the new players may have brought new energy to the global markets, but rapid modernization has presented an ever higher pressure on global resources. The development of financial institutions is necessary to respond to the new challenges and support the development of new firms which can drive the needed innovation10. Health of our banking system is something that concerns both governments and corporates.

While real problems of economy can hardly be solved with an image-building exercise, a favorable image of banking in public is necessary to ensure participation of the public. The solution to current problems does not have to be as drastic as popular media might have you think but a focus on transparency in financial transactions and assurance of public participation would ensure that the democratic institutions of our society are well prepared to address the challenges to global economy that lie ahead.

References

1. McGoldcrick P.J. et al, 1992, Competition between banks and Building Societies in the Retailing of Financial Services
2. Vincente, J., Sabate, J. and Puerta, J. (2004), “A study of industry evolution in the face of major environmental disturbances: group and firm strategic behaviour of Spanish banks, 1983-1997”, British Journal of Management, Vol. 15 No. 3, pp. 219-45
3. Bravo, R., Montana, T. and Pina, J. (2009), “The role of bank image for customers versus non-customers”, International Journal of Bank Marketing, Vol. 27 No. 4, pp. 315-34
4. http://www.publications.parliament.uk/pa/jt201314/jtselect/jtpcbs/27/27ii02.htm
5. http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/american-excess--a-wall-street-trader-tells-all-1674614.html
6. Leiser, D., Gironde, S. and Benita, R. (2010), “Human foibles or systemic failure? Lay perceptions of the 2008-2009 financial crisis”, Journal of Socio-Economics, Vol. 39, pp. 132-41
7. Bodenhausen, G., Sheppard, L. and Kramer, G. (1994), “Negative affect and social judgement: the differential impact of anger and sadness”, European Journal of Social Psychology, Vol. 24 No. 1, pp. 45-62 
8. Cox, P. (2007), “Should a financial service provider care about trust? An empirical study of retail saving and investment allocations”, Journal of Financial Services Marketing, Vol. 12 No. 1, pp. 75-87.
9. John Curtice, Alison Park, A tale of two crises: banks, MPs' expenses and public opinion, British social attitudes: the 27th report
10. Rajan R.G., Zingales L., The great reversals: the politics of financial development in the twentieth century, Journal of Financial Economics 69 (2003) 5–50

A trip to Indian backwaters

The plan to get to Mysore was last minute. I had already booked a hotel for the night in Bangalore and we could have just stayed there - running water, no power cuts, shiny chrome taps and an A/C whose workings had just been explained. But we all knew how difficult it has now become to get around in Bangalore. In the once garden city where I had had the bumpy rides of my youth riding auto-rickshaws, I was now met with eye-burning pollution during long waits at traffic lights. What once were villages were now “skylish” apartments. We could do better than staying trapped in the hotel - we said to ourselves - and the plan to Mysore was hatched. I found a cheap hotel in Mysore to convince myself of the plan’s economy and hailed a cab to Mysore. A lot of cab operators still haven’t found GPS feasible enough in India and so were to rely on my cell-phone to get to the destination. After some navigation from the back seat I got ourselves to the hotel in Mandi Mohalla. The driver was to sleep in the car while we headed to our cheap room.

It was past midnight and I was too tired to worry about anything else but a good sleep. The squat toilet worked just fine and the checked pure wool quilts which hurts your skin bad gave me a sense of that nostalgia of 80s which I still seek in India and quietly put me to bed.

Morning was to wake me up with chatters on the street in a familiar language which I didn’t so much understand. The noises of bicycle bells, scootie horns, miscellaneous pots shaken on carriages by road bumps and occasional yells in Kannada were filling up the streets. There was a knock on the door . Which I answered but was unable to understand. I picked up the few words in English which the boy said and walked straight to reception. There was no concern about anything I was told. The boy had apparently misunderstood what he was asked to do and came knocking at the door.

I walked back getting a better look of the hotel now. Right outside my room on the right was a courtyard paved with irregular stones that were joined together with cement and dust of time. The sunlight shone at all corners and had kept the potted plants alive. The floor of the hotel paved in mosaic, was studded with glass fragments that formed square patterns converging into a flower. The morning light in India, more so than other places, gives a yellowish tint to reality. The noises then form a certain music and a small corner maintained with only little order makes a refuge from chaos of markets and the world around.

It was this order of world which my childhood was built with. There was no internet, the TV ran only in evenings and we spent our summers playing carrom board, card games or reading thick Indrajal comic books. The TV ran in the evenings and was fullu controlled by my grandpa much the way TV broadcasts themselves were controlled by the government. The half hour of Chitrahar on Wednesdays played songs that sew the ideas of love and separation much before sexuality could have made any sense to a child’s mind.

Back inside my room, I switched the TV on out of curiosity. I had preconceptions of what was to be on. The free and dynamic world of the TV had become quite repetitive in the decade of globalization - sensationalization of trivial reports, retorts and empty slogans exchanged between dynasts, goons and politicians and soft-porn of the mainstream cinema. Men were all now hooked to it in the increasing order of these.

The quiet world of my childhood now found only in poor neighborhoods of India had long departed from its cities and though I have only hit 30s this world seems to have been moved to a museum - of which I can only pick up the reminiscence of at places where globalization still has not made its way.

Not without their clashes the two worlds - market and backyard - seem to coexist in India. The urban India claims to have become West already while the rural backwaters of India struggle to survive - untrained in Western ways and trying hard only to get by.

There is a new song on TV for a film to be released next year - models as Nicole Faria and Evelyn Sharma show up in the trailer song, enjoying the beach, the sun and company of the Indian rapper Yo Yo Honey Singh. There is a certain buzz to the song, vibes of a new, money squandering, prosperous India and I quite like it.

But there is also the other song on Zee Cinema, of which I still relish the poetry of.

جب چلی ٹھنڈی ھوہ جب ئٹی کالی گھٹا
مجھکو اے جانےوفہ تم یاد آیے
زیندگی کی داستاں چاھے کتنی ھو ھسیں
بن تیرے کچھ بھی نھیں بن تیرے کچھ بھی نھیں

As the wind caresses me and clouds come up to the sky,
I think of you - the soul of my promised life*
The story of my life may be as pleasant as it is right now,
But it means nothing without you, nothing without you.

Asha Parekh, the actress, takes leave from a pair that tried to engage her into dancing and sings the song - out of nowhere as is always in the movies of the time and spends about five minutes mostly staring at the camera in an agony of separation which we don’t see on camera any more. It is that innocence, that rather repressed longing for the beloved that is nowhere to be seen in the new India. But why then is it still on TV - I wonder - and why do I keep coming back to it?

I think a lot of what we consider happiness did come out of this innocence. We often find comfort in losing ourself to another person - caring for someone else without the hope of getting something back. The world of my childhood may have departed but this control-sharing of Indian families, probably inherent, still survives. That could be why that seeing the cacophony of India media, it is my granddad’s (remote) control that I miss the most.

To reconcile the departure of the 80s world I often tell myself that the life was a bit too controlled in the 80s. Perturbed by the noise of Indian media, I often relish the memories of dharmyug, saptahik hindustan and krishi darshan when the license raj wouldn’t have allowed just anybody to broadcast whatever they wanted. In quitting the era of parental and governmental control, we seemed to have lost a bit of self-reflection as well. I see an excess of thinktanks, aspiring writers and international commentators but an orchestra of international acclaim is yet to come out of India. As I move closer to 40s and witness the departure of the world that brought me up I try coming to terms with that some things gone would never come back. The Hindi commentary, its popularity and its literature are not going to come back in that same form and whatever comes back or is reinvented would be as alien to me as anything else.

Indeed there are those who see continuity amidst the disparities of India and are fine with the demonic contrasts which globalization has unleashed. Enjoying the comforts of Western life, however, I still wish that I had spent more time on carrom, cards rather than video games and soft-porn. There is too much tantalizing on TV - everywhere - I think. There is a constant rush to reclaim what you could be missing out on without answering what you really want. What started as science in the era of enlightenment has now been reduced to knowledge of chemicals and genes that drive your body to get what it desires. The quite backwaters of India offer a stop where you could still think of what you’re missing before you’re madly after it.

*وفاء wafāʼ - loyalty, sincerity; consciensciousness



Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Religion and war

The rather latent interaction of our society with paganism always amazes me. I am often that told that my tendencies of withdrawal and of seeking solitude partly drive my often awkward observations of pagan roots of our social customs. It is true that my withdrawal from society often enables me to see, for example, roots of Christianity in blood rituals or images of martyrdom that the early Christianity expanded with.

It is not just for amusement however that I find paganism in our modern notions of martyrdom and sanctity of war. Reading modern media of all kinds, it is war it seems, of one kind or the other, that justifies and perpetuates our existence in the world. Celebrations of war in our society may not be very compatible with the compassion of Christianity (or any other "religion" for that matter) but the celebrations survive - the pagan roots of our societies having not been superceded by any religion as yet. Religion or government which descended from the former, only cherrypicks the means of violence while the our pagan untamed tendencies of violence remain wild and uncontrolled. Instead of sanctifying such tendencies, which war does, it is better to understand our tendencies. Sadly our governments don't always help us do that.

Friday, November 29, 2013

Rhythms unnecessary - Attempts at Poetry

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Coming back after a day full of meetings,
I take the bus out of London.
Soon we'll be in the countryside,
where glassbox offices would appear Martian.

It's dark now and a dim light is on
for the passenger sitting before me.
It's not Daily Mail that he reads,
a topic far too numbing for his ride.

London
 
The red buses and grayed pavements,
Rain, lipsticks, heel and umbrellas.
the constant flurry of pedestrians,
waiting for one another to arrive,
are the paradox in defending quietness.

Monday, November 04, 2013

Concentration

I find it somewhat amazing that for academic achievements just concentration alone matters the most. In my early childhood I could perform well (relatively) without needing to concentrate. Later when I was in college it appeared that I worked better under pressure. I considered this realization as my inherent nature throughout my studies and it probably even let me choose more "challenging" tasks in places where I would have to struggle a little.

It was difficult to find happiness with belief in working-under-pressure. In reality pressure had worked better for me only because I could concentrate only when I was under pressure - by eliminating all distractions. It was not easy to eliminate distractions in my adolescence without a pressure of some sort. It is probably only natural to experience this in adolescence. However, social withdrawal meant that my prolonged hours of studying literature, history and philosophy, although for fun but were always just "wanderings" of the mind. I could never think of making a career out what I enjoyed only because I could never concentrate on what I could give to others and thus make a career out of.


Friday, November 01, 2013

Polishing

There is just one word, so far, that defines business school for me - "polishing". It is polishing all around - you polish your resumé, you polish your speech and of course you need to keep your shoes polished at all times.

There are not many rules in business but the basic rules which exist cannot be broken. You cannot break the rules of smalltalk, you cannot discuss politics, you don't talk about ethnic or cultural backgrounds or worse - how they might matter in the global environment. The gleam of money and status knows no prejudice or boundaries. It is seductive and draws everyone in. The businessmanship that you are meant to develop is upward mobile by definition - at least always mobile anyways.

So this necessary phase of polishing by itself what would make you forget for once where you have came from and let you build this polished image which can take you anywhere.

Monday, April 29, 2013

abstract reasoning

In studying physics and in mathematics, what fascinated me most was abstract reasoning. There was a sense of comfort in avoiding equations or free-body diagrams and using logic to rule out inelegant solutions. That is what I loved physics for.

When asked why does a cord hanging between two ends sags only in the middle, I could provide the answer with free-body diagrams but I am far more likely to explain the solution with symmetry. Since the state of the cord must be same to all observers (within relativistic limits I guess) I could argue that the cord has nowhere else to sag.
In retrospect, such reasoning is why I appreciated physics. I wasn't motivated to solve problems of n-ended chords or asymmetric chords as much I was interested in the abstract reasoning and moving on to seeking symmetry in other places.

Saturday, March 09, 2013

News not views

In a blog entry, Neha Paliwal points out that food prices after all have not been so much of a trigger for Arab Spring. Earlier Nafeez Mosaddeq Ahmed had declared food price volatility a fundamental trigger for political instability. Neha points out that inflation-adjusted prices have in fact not gone up in the middle-east – so it's difficult to assert that food prices had a big role to play in the Arab Spring.

It just goes to show that we lack the standards which can let us measure the accuracy of political analyses. Some scrutiny is needed before fiction can make it to the public masquerading as analysis. The conclusions which journalists and writers often draw on economy and politics are subjective – even fictional. Although our institutions – law and governments - don't run on subjective grounds yet somehow a wide gap seems to exist between law and media when it comes to ed-pieces and commentary on economics or politics. It's not just that media stories read a lot different from documents of law. It's that what media offers as analysis is often a selective medlee of laws and data.

Such gaps won't be a problem if entertainment is all that media was offering. But unfortunately truth is claimed to be offered in those sweeping conclusions drawn on politics and news. The interpretation of data – whether it be that of Mr Ahmed, Paul Krugman or Jim Cramer - seldom receives scrutiny. We assume the truth in extrapolation of data judging by the repoutation of the author or the journal.  Stating the extrapolation or adding scatter plots 
often don't sell the story - so what we're sold instead are prose of doom or self-appraisal written by people who we trust. This may not offer us consistency or semlbance of a truth but allows us to choose our news the way we swtich channels on TV.

Empire State of Mind


While reading Amit Chaudhari's Afternoon raag today some distant memories of my own childhood were evoked. Growing up in Northern India, it seems strange that some of us lived with our minds placed outside our vast country. We had been colony for such a long time that being a colony was ingrained in our society. I was too young at the time to have understood the post-colonial context of my surroundings but I can clearly remember of my English teacher and my grand-dad having an unexplained respect for the British. My dad on the other hand - a rebellious believer of Indian self-dependence – did not pay much respect to the West. He seemed conscious of the Western might and he was proud of having studied at an early Victorian college but somehow managed to fight the tendencies to fall in love with the West – as if having learned the futility of such romance from the previous generation.

The West existed in such unspoken subjects in my childhood. My grand-dad had taken British for granted and at school and without realizing I too was a part of this same system. We all had a tendency to assume British supremacy in all matters. We spoke local tongues but whenever someone had to make a strong argument, switching to English seemed natural. It gave it that official touch. All disagreements over anything in fact came to an end if someone could quote from a book published in English. The possibility of publishing something in English ourselves was so distant that nothing in our world could have possibly questioned the authenticity of a book written in English. In a strange way therefore the Empire was still in our minds even if in reality it was long gone.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

resigning from the act


As I try writing finishing up my article I find a pattern that has recurred in my life - I wrap up and move to something purportedly more productive. As a kid this was the math assignment - which would always take longer and which I would always be late for.

My interest in math was always and had always been only a philosophical one. I never liked numbers even though I was moderately good at it. I enjoyed Math only after I had discovered algebra and coordinate geometry; I enjoyed it more when I found they were one and the same. I would've loved to give some more time thinking or writing about it but as I grew up, becoming a lecturer in philosophy seemed as bad as resigning from life. It probably appeared much worse to my dad. In the end, I had to wrap up my act, attending the classes for a more commonplace and a more mundane profession.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Writing Course in London

To inspect some major defects in my writing I enrolled myself into a course for journalistic writing. I knew that I have nothing to lose - I have been writing only for myself (other than long boring investigative emails that I have to write at work) - so it was to be a nice experience finding out what real journalism is about.

I am amazed so far - discovering what some of my peers have set themselves to write about. One student who has been published multiple times wants to write from her own experience about recovering from loss of hearing. Another student, a farmer's daughter, is pitching a story about eating only from local produce grown in a small Scotland village. I esp loved the last idea. The student is also a documentary producer and I certainly believe this is worth a documentary. 

I myself have not been able to write anything substantial - I have been thinking of two articles - one about bullying and the other about mobile-apps for weight- loss. But I am in an environment where I am inspired to write.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

small town

When I look at all of us who didn't grow up in big cities I find ourselves still trapped in our small town - a place where most of happiness is tied to our small close-knit community. Our needs, whether emotional or physical are met within a few hundred people we have known for most of our lives and even though non-conformance is not an option here, we don't miss it because we have never felt the need to rebel. Life moves at its own pace here and there is a general feeling in all of us, often in defiance of reality, that we can take on anything that threatens to destroy our happiness.

It is probably difficult for a city-dweller to appreciate this life of contentness but a small-towner longs to reunite with this idyllic world that has no pretense, no hierarchy nor any pressure of any sort.

When a small-towner is thrown out of his habitat, he fails to enjoy the city life. He is a misfit everywhere he goes. He acts nice where he is meant to be practical and he is awkward where he needs tact. He doesn't like the hierarchy because he hasn't seen it before. He has neither felt any intense life-ambition nor known the ignominy of being nobody. Unable to do much to change this hierarchical world though, he ends up trying to assimilate himself at his new home. He extols hierarchy, ambition and the drive to achieve success in life. He finds the brutality of competition necessary even though he feels himself to be a victim at all times.

There are many among us small-towners who fight this inherent unhappiness. We are in the city but our heart lies elsewhere. We love the big-city but we often find the brutality of this world unbearable. The dualism kills us and rejuvenates us at the same time. We have ambiguous feelings but we have started loving the ambiguity itself. We are fond of our yoga classes, our drugs, our alternative music and foreign food. Yet we all have an unsaid commitment to money-making. We are scared of fakes and of being mislead because we know the disasters of loving a pretentious woman or a Chinatown bracelet. The small towner in us often finds his escape from small-town pointless but he sticks to his guns , often rebelling but returning after a small vacation. There is some sort of Stockholm syndrome at work with big cities as our invincible oppressor.

There are many of us trapped in the small-towns of our heads so even if we live big in big places we would be in our small-town forever.